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Working Mom - Part 2

Back in February I wrote about how I was having a hard time going back to work full time. I explained (complained) about how I was working long hours and that by the time I got home in the evenings, I basically only had time to hold Scarlett for a little while, bathe her, and put her to bed. Things never really got much better. 

When I wrote that blog post back in February I really struggled with whether or not I should share it. I didn't want to come across as a complainer, especially because I knew I had so much to be thankful for. But, the spirit moved me and I posted it anyway. And I am so glad I did. 
Because I did, I received advice from an amazing woman (you know who you are). Ever since that blog post she's been my mentor and helped me to see the bigger picture and helped me to form a plan to get me out of the situation I was in. 
And so last week I was able to resign from a job that just wasn't meant for me. From day one I wasn't happy, and it was more than me…

I Am Morbid

Being a mother will without a doubt be the most incredible and terrifying thing I will ever do. If these past 7 months have taught me anything, it's that. Before I was a mom, there were certain things that I feared. The fears I have as a mother are nothing compared to the fears I had pre-motherhood. 

Before motherhood, I feared the normal things: Dying. Losing my spouse, my parents, my siblings. Losing a friend. Losing a pet. Losing a job. When I was pregnant I feared losing the pregnancy. I worried that my baby would be born with the cord around its neck. I worried constantly. I foolishly thought that once the baby was here, safe in my arms, that my worries would be limited. Boy, was I wrong. 
Now that Scarlett is here I still have all the fears I mentioned above, but I also have two new fears that I often think about. 
The first fear is of me dying. I mentioned that as a fear I had before motherhood, but it was different then. When I feared death then, it was more because of the…