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My Nerves

Some of y'all might think I'm crazy for this, but I'm really mad/concerned that I'm not having any real pregnancy symptoms with this pregnancy. Like, none. My boobs aren't really sore anymore and if it wasn't for being tired, I would feel no differently than I did on a normal, not-pregnant day. And I don't even know if I can attribute my tiredness fully to my pregnancy. I'm not drinking my AdvoCare Spark twice/three times a day anymore and THAT could be why I'm tired. Some people need coffee, I need Spark... Almost everyone who I tell this to says: "you're one of the lucky ones". Or "your body is adapting well to the changes"... And while that's all nice, I WANT to feel pregnant. It would make me feel more SAFE if I felt more pregnant. And if I knew 100% that everything was okay and perfect then maybe, MAYBE, I would be thankful for the minimal pregnancy symptoms. But I don't know that. Sure, I had a beautiful ultraso…

Dirty 30

Hey everyone! It's been a month since I've written you and so much has happened! The last time I wrote to you all I discussed the new year and how much HOPE that I had that 2014 be our year for fertility. I had no idea how wrong that blog post would soon become. But before I discuss that, let's discuss another major life change. A little over a week ago, I turned 30! Remember how I had once written that I wanted this big huge extravagant party for my 30th? Well... Things didn't quite happen that way. Turned out I had to catch a flight to Arkansas the day after my 30th birthday and a late night out just didn't seem appealing anymore. Especially since I had just taken a pregnancy test twelve days prior to my birthday and it was a BFP. For those of you not familiar with that fertility term, BFP stands for Big Fat Positive...

Y'all like how I casually threw that in there?? Haha! Yes - you all read correctly. I AM PREGNANT! Turns out 2014 will not be the year of fert…